What's so appealing about a video game in which you create people, and live their lives for them? It's a fantasy world. You do what you will and no one can judge you. Any mistakes you make won't actually affect your life.
But real life can be just as exciting can't it? Dreams and plans for yourself can come true, right?
Can on change schools so easily? Can one start dating at 22 so easily?
I once thought a big change was just what I needed... but when that didn't really work for me, I let my family make my next choice, Harding University in Arkansas. And I loved it, it was such a bless. My roommate was awesome, and had a family that is now my second family. I was just where my family wanted me, in close proximity to a lot of Christian guys... not that I've ever dated any of them. I guess I would like to. But is that who I am? I'm not a Sim, and my mom, well she may be 1/3rd my creator, but I don't have a plumbob and she doesn't control me.
I want to take charge of my own life. I want to be able to say that I've done everything that I've wanted to. I want to be able to say, "This is where I want to be."
So... where do I want to be? I don't mean next year, I know where I want to be then. I mean in five, ten, fifteen years. Where do I want to be? What do I want to do? There's a lot that I have to choose from. I could be a designer... of fashion! or I could write. Both? Or I could teach. That would be pretty reasonable... the paycheck would be shabby, but hey! ...
I dream about the big apple, dirty subways, taxi cabs, and a shabby apartment fixed up with a collection of mismatched furnishings. I want to go to work, walk my dog, and get drinks with the girls. I just don't know what I need to do to get myself there.
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